Last week, when I was back in Colombia I asked a store manager if I could use the fitting room and he answered in typical Colombian fashion “Claro, mi reina” which translates to “Of course, my queen” and for a split second I wanted to say “No una reina, una khaleesi” and this is exactly why I am as much of dork as I am a genius.
I love these! I got these at a boutique in Pereira that ships from parts of Colombia and South/South East Asia. Also my ac/dc shirt is a strong contrast to my 1d poster haha
I think that everyone at some point in their lives gets up to one moment when he or she or they realize that their life is not what they thought it would be. It’s also sort of a socratic moment. A moment you kind of realize that you really really don’t know anything- not even the wisdom or the harness you were trying to build as you got older makes any sense to you anymore.
I have already had so many of those, but I had one a few days ago that really stuck to me. I realize that my life is not what I thought I knew and that I do not even know what it is now or if it will be ever any close to what I want. And I think that the sooner that we can learn to accept that while we have our own cards to play that some things will always be beyond on our control.
It’s just harder to accept now both the things that we have control over and the ones we don’t. Or at least for me because as I have become older I have let all the things that people admired me for not me letting them get to me now. And though I process and have understood that for a while I think that the sooner I begin to really accept it the more I can make my own life however or wherever it turns out.
But, naturally it’s hard.
"AND GIN AND CASEY USED TO DANCE INSIDE OF ME AND I BET I SOUND LIKE A BROKEN record every time I open my mouth I want to wander around the city with you again like when you waited tables and I waited for your shift breaks…
Me and Casey we used to get DRUNK before we did the dishes oh, every evening. Me and Casey used to get high and listen to our boredom. Cause it was so much easier, Cause it was so much EASIER than dealing with everything”